Year One is a published journal. All profits go to the lukelove Foundation, working to end stigma and help those affected by substance use disorder.

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My Boy
My Grief
My Journal
Losing a child to Opioids

For all our broken souls.

This Journal was never meant to be read, not even by myself.
It was my outlet to settle my panic and grief, to sort my mind, to explore what I was not understanding.
To log what I felt in this time when I felt so much in so many directions and sometimes felt nothing at all.
Nothing and too much.

When I was asked to write a book - I could not.
I tried.
The emotion, so raw, was merely a narrative.
And so I offer you my journal.

I offer this up to be read, not to set myself or Luke apart from those who also suffer as part of the roadkill of this opioid crisis. It is an offering of my personal experience in the hope that it may help others who may find themselves here.

This disease makes us all feel crazy.
It invokes stigma.
And helplessness.
It is threatening and dreaded by those who fear my position and Luke’s.
It’s a situation we all fear and in that fear we would all choose to deny its possibilities.
The insanity and loneliness that is grief.
The insanity and loneliness of substance use disorder.
The insanity of loss, so deep.

It’s all here - laid bare.

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